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I know I am going to regret this.

2011-12-14T02:08:00.002+08:00

I am writing this post with much reservations.
Because after what happened...
I'm sure it'll be filled with much sadness/hatred/happiness/I miss yous.

Wtf is wrong with youtube. Or realplayer. I can't download songs from youtube to realplayer anymore. Okok manual. Almost Lover on repeat.

I feel so... numb now.

18 years of my life has passed with much... emotions.

OH justina's calling yay :)

Happy to be home :)

2011-09-03T01:15:00.000+08:00

Mindblowing

2011-08-12T20:41:00.000+08:00

"Justice is not a cloistered virtue: she must be allowed to suffer the scrutiny and respectful, even though outspoken, comments of ordinary men."
- Lord Atkin

Please shoot me and end my misery

2011-07-06T02:07:00.000+08:00

IKR

2011-07-06T02:04:00.000+08:00

Somedays...

2011-07-06T02:03:00.000+08:00

Today can be summed up in 6 words and 1 punctuation mark

2011-06-30T21:34:00.001+08:00

I'd rather blog than pack my room.

2011-06-30T17:08:00.004+08:00

Hi. I've finally got meself a killers playlist. YAY ME. Haha.
Okay, awkward. *inserts awkward turtle hand sign*

Well, I recently visited my own blog (this sounds stupid) and I realised how weird I was/am. I didn't go very far back because I'm afraid of how creepy I could be.
Why the heck did I post so many goddamn pictures of watches and... Haha ok I forgot what I posted cos I viewed my blog like donkey ages ago. And in case you guys didnt know, I deliberately changed my font to this irritating (what is this computer looking font called) just to make sure ppl will get sick of reading my previous (2 years and beyond older) posts. HAHA AND ALSO COS I THOUGHT IT WAS COOL. So there. I'm annoying and weird.
:)

And I like to ramble.

Well, now that I'm 18 going on 19 and blogging is no longer rad, I feel rather kiddy blogging. But I promise I'll update more often! Especially now that I'm in law school, I hope to be one of those HELPFUL UNKNOWN SENIORS. Haha doing like a GUIDE TO SURVIVE LAW SCHOOL or sth.

Because
1) I'm not a very consistent/hardworking student and I predict I'm going to suffer in law school. I mean, I am expected to keep a gpa cap of like 3.5 or 4.0 (if I'm not wrong) for my NUS law faculty scholarship (kekekeke im boasting, bite me) and my double deg (in law and acc). Ok and dont ask me how I got my ddp/scholarship cos I basically had a really fun discussion w the profs on MEE POK TA AND FISHBALLS during my law interview. Fun times ~
2) I am not from RJ/HCI. (this means alot)
3) I am going to have very few friends in law school. Yesssssss, thank you dear lord Jesus for making me lose my voice at Bizad camp and now I really cant find the energy/voice to strike meaningful conversations with my future classmates.

So that was a tidbit of my course of study in university.
IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING, I got rejected frm NYU (wtfffffffffffffffffffffff stern my dream school) and SMU LAW + acc, so I got bizad + acc instead.

I really am starting to love/hate school.

I mean, I'm in law RAG (and FLAG) which is gonna be this really big deal this year cos it's gonna be like NUS chingay part of NDP. Apparently it's gonna be a pre-show for NDP and it's the first time we're performing for like people not frm nus. Or sth. I tried my very best to keep awake for briefings. HAHAHA. But I love briefings cos I have a very strrrrrrrrrong motivation to keep awake. YEEHEEHEE.
And only Shumei and Rachel will know why. HA.

Ok, speaking of why I start to dislike sch is cozzzzzzzzz (omg so lianz) Justina and Lynn are going to uk and I really wanna spend more time for them. Haha this sounds like the DANCE shirt that the tj dancers have.
I keep seeing myself saying things like "i'm sorry i've got law rag..."
D:
Yeah so friends, please forgive me! Esp Singchuen, Fatz/faith, Justina lynn charis rachel, yt, xuan, shannon, cherie/zihui (yay new found friends) etc.

WOW I'VE GOT SO FEW FRIENDS. Hahhahah

Ok Angeline's here to borrow clothes/accessories! And I'm off to watch Transformers with my mom and bro!

I wish everyday was Halloween...

2010-03-26T21:38:00.004+08:00

Hahah it's supposed to be funny.

P.s. I hate my phone.

Happy post-mcts guys!
May you all stay strong and active like Tiger Woods and Jack Neo.
:D

“When his life was ruined, his family killed, his farm destroyed, Job knelt down
on the ground and yelled up to the heavens, 'Why god? Why me?' and the
thundering voice of God answered, 'There's just something about you that pisses
me off”
-Stephen King

200 plus days to A levels

2010-03-24T14:46:00.002+08:00

I think the best compliment anyone can tell me right now is:
You're smart :)

Not pretty, not cute, not whatever.
(Okay lah maybe if you say .... HAHAHHA NVM EGOISTIC)
Yeah.

I really give up on Math.
Let's see how I'll do for MCTs!

I rmb, last year's JCTs was like EEUUE
So fucked up hahaha (Y)
Then Promos was like BCESD
-.-
Sooooooooooooo, let's hope after dropping Chem to H1 andandand studying harder + listening in class will pay off! :)

Can't. Wait. For. MCTs. To. Be. Over.
Daddy's gonna bring me to the IR!
If he doesn't break his promiseeeeeeeeeeee D:

:D
That's cos he doesn't know how badly I'll do for Maths.

Fightttttttttting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANNA WATCH THE CITYHALL

How I wasted today away. Yes, bio VS. econs no more. All fail :)

2010-03-22T19:58:00.005+08:00

OR

This?

Chicago!

The movie: (all time favourite!)

Cabaret (starring the amazingggggggggggg Liza Minelli)
Here!!!
The the best song

I can't believe I don't know this goddess, Aretha Franklin.
She's amazing :)

Two of the best songs!

Koreans do it best!!

2010-03-20T00:19:00.000+08:00

Leave it to the Koreans to make a good love story.

It's 3pm, I still don't wanna study

2010-03-15T14:52:00.001+08:00

I promise I'll study at 3pm!!!!!!!!!!!!

Givenchy.

HAHAHAHAHHA
ALWAYS, ALWAYS MAKES ME LAUGH HYSTERICALLY.

Favourite cereal of all time :)

D&G 10/11 fall winter

2010-03-15T14:45:00.000+08:00

I really like that they used the Moulin Rouge soundtrack :)

Shit, I thought of you again

2010-03-14T19:15:00.002+08:00

Everytime I watch this, it gets better.
MEAN GIRLS!

HAHAHAH

I really, really do this every night.

I want to look like this everyday of my life.
Tomorrow, it's time to get a Chanel matte red lipstick :)

Prelude to MCTs musings 1.1

2010-03-14T18:55:00.004+08:00

I have this obsession with all things Super Mario.
I even featured it in my PW! :D

But when it came right down to it, the skin of my wrist looked so white and
defenseless that I couldn’t do it. It was as if what I wanted to kill wasn’t in
that skin or the thin blue pulse that jumped under my thumb, but somewhere else,
deeper, more secret, and a whole lot harder to get.

— Sylvia Plath

Other than the lesbian theme,
I'm like, WTF?
:D

"I told you she doesn't have a dick, man."

HHAAHHAHAHAHAHA therapy.

2010-03-14T13:28:00.001+08:00

Place your hand in mine.

2010-02-28T01:38:00.002+08:00

Fate fell short this time,
your smile fades in the summer.

:'(

2010-02-27T21:15:00.004+08:00

I wish I could block 3 people from reading my blog.
Fuck.

I fucking hate studying fuck I'm gonna fail chem on Monday.
Fuck

I miss my home.
I miss gor gorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I FUCKING HATE ARMY.

Some people are so fucking stupid I wish they'd drop dead & die.
HAHAHAHAHA I'M SO EVIL.

Somehow I only feel like bloggin when sth bad happens.
And it's super depressing to go to school when I keep seeing that person and I can't talk to ...
and all the fucking people that talk to me, I just don't wanna fucking talk to them.
Get it?
:)

I wanna go back to tkgs.
Maybe I would've turned into a hot lesbian and then become atheist
and life wouldn't seem that complicated :)
Perhaps after that drop out to poly or sth.
And play dress up everyday, take up dressmaking and then business.

ba da ba ba da da ba da......

/EDIT
Paramore should be an acoustic band.
She's so good.
(Watched mtv unplugged.)

FML (this list of wants will add on)

2010-02-15T22:27:00.012+08:00

1. Wanna have long hair to do the Alexander Wang/ Miumiu hair thing.
2. Keep staring at myself in the mirror every 15 ticks of the clock cos of the fucking fucking fucking fucking pimple fuck
3. Also keep staring at pictures of myself, imagining what would happen if I had just one tiny beautiful dot on the left corner of my bottom lip.
4. Was sick yesterday, spoilt my phone yesterday. Sorry if I'm replying slow, it's because I'm dead.
-
edit 1

5. I want topshop tights, those polka dotted sheer stockings or those with pwetty hearts on them. yes shoot me i'm gay

edit 2 (20/02/10)
6. Boyfriend criteria (updated ver)
- tall, lean, smart
- I think guys that have a face likeeeeeeeeeeeee: (single eyelidz/small eyes, perpetually screwed up/blur face, 878654356 candid pictures on fb instead of those stupid posing studs EW YUCK GROSS DIE, nice friendly smile in real life but actually don't know how to smile, dimple, nice face shape + can see jawline) is super PHWROAR (Y)
- can hold a conversation
- good listener + know what to say at the right time ie. say what I want to hear hahaahhahahahah omg this sounds difficult
- nice shoulders (more like shoulder to lean on)
- charm charm charm charisma head turner (ahahhaha doesn't mean you're friggin hot/cute/noisy) but just mysterious, soft, quiet, subtle
- do sports HAHAHAHA idk why this is impt?
- cute personality (weird ppl can apply now)
- dorkyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy/ahbeng :D
- nice ankles
- I notice guys who wear sexy shoes (like vans off the wall/fred perry/ben sherman/ONITSUKA TIGERSSSSSSSSSSSSS) etc.
- smaaaaaaalll teeth = cute

now that's my type.
or rather, eye candy.

Normally the ppl I like are just.....
o.O

I GOT DAMN BAD TASTE. SHOOT ME PLEASE :(
I like people with AP. WHY why whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!
Not like I want to like those idiots...

(HAHAHAHA I JUST REALISED WITH EVERYTHING, I WILL NEVER LIKE MY OWN BROTHER-.- Oh wellz)

7. Monday, February 22, 2010.
Watching SUJU-M HAHAHAH ON MTV OMG ASIAN TAKEAWAY JK.
OH MY SHUPERRRRRRRRRR GIRL.
Anyway just ate 10 packets of wang wang omg, it's damn goooood.
I WANNA GET LIKE THE LIFETIME PASS OR YEAR PASS OR WTV IT'S CALLED. HAAHHAHA OMG.
Pleaseeeeeeeeeee, mommy, that would be a perfect birthday present :)

8. Went out with Fatimah, missed the madness that school is supposed to be like. D:
WALAO TJ SO BORING KILL ME N.O.W!!!!!!!!!

9. Infatuated with Mr. Tall :D
10. I want to learn this:

Plus all the lyrics.

Since when did Omarion dance!??!?!
(Y) now that's a real dance (choreography)

1081

2010-02-07T19:23:00.001+08:00

€TAE YANG LOOKS LIKE EASTER-EGG-CUTE-BOY OMFG.
WITH THE MOHAWK AND ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ME LIKEY

2010-01-29T11:17:00.000+08:00

2010-01-28T16:51:00.001+08:00

:D:D:D

2010-01-26T21:20:00.001+08:00

OMG ANGELINE!
BBQQQQQQQQQ!!!!!!!!!!
:D

KARA - Mister

2010-01-26T21:06:00.002+08:00

Everyday I learn sth,

2010-01-26T21:02:00.001+08:00

(from Shannon and Calvin!!!!)

URBAN DICTIONARY:

awkward turtle

May 29, 2007 Urban Word of the Day

When you're in an awkward moment, place your hands on top of each other, and spin your thumbs forward. Thus creating the creature know as awkward turtle.

Oh my god, so I was talking to Becky about STDs and I forgot she had syphillis... it was mad awkward turtle.

Summer's never over.

2010-01-21T23:13:00.001+08:00

Meet my freaky friends B and BJ.
P.S. I'm J
:)

Sleep > you

2010-01-21T23:09:00.001+08:00

School has been (surprisingly) fun!
And boring at the same time,
I think it's only because Mrs Ang just started on her lectures.
ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzZzzzzzzzzzzzzZ.

WHY!!!

2010-01-17T16:39:00.001+08:00

(nuff said)

"I don’t know if I can tell you exactly when the pussy generation started. Maybe when people started asking about the meaning of life."

Clint Eastwood
(Esquire mag)

So here's a good one.

2010-01-16T14:06:00.001+08:00

I get merry when I spam blog posts!!!!!!!!

Psssst:

2010-01-16T14:04:00.002+08:00

"Life’s disappointments are harder to take when you don’t know any swear words."

Calvin and Hobbes

I look for answers

2010-01-16T14:02:00.003+08:00

"You don’t get to choose; you just fall in love. And you get this person who is all wrong and all right at the same time. And you know that you love them so much, except sometimes they just drive you completely insane and no one can explain it. And the reason it’s so confusing is because it’s love. If love didn’t have any challenges, what would be the point?"

Party of Five

So you ask

2010-01-16T13:55:00.002+08:00

"The truth is, I’ve never learned to ride a bicycle, because among other reasons, it is something you can never forget. This is who I am: someone who simultaneously longs for and fears the commitment of remembering. There is the forgetting, the disintegration of memory, morsel by morsel; and there is the impossibility of forgetting, the scar tissue, with its insulated layers of padding. Both haunt me in their own way."

Book: The Opposite of Love by Julie Buxbaum

I am going to circumnavigate his soul until he is surrounded on all sides by my love.

2010-01-16T13:26:00.003+08:00

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

— Bob Marley

.

2010-01-16T12:59:00.003+08:00

I think I have 2 philosophies in life:

“There’s something liberating about not pretending. Dare to embarrass yourself. Risk.”

— Drew Barrymore

“Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.
Think only of the best, work only for the best and expect only the best.
Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others.
Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side as long as you are true to the best that is in you.”

— Christian D. Larson

"I'll never fall for a girl like you."

2010-01-16T12:47:00.004+08:00

"Impossible, maybe
but worth one last try.
I’m sittin here, patiently,
just for the chance that I might be able to hold you tight.
And I want to know what makes your world go round,
And I want to hear your voice for the sound.
A love that defines all ive had in my mind
Now I’m holding back nothing for the look in your eyes.
Now time is all tht we have.
So won’t you let me inside your perfect world for one night?"

The Look by Ryan Tedder

It scares me to think,
that you could find takers other than me
and better than me.

But you're head is elsewhere,
and I’m talking enough for both of us.
When will you see it's not (it’s not) so easy for me
you’re careless, and whispered, insulting, and bruising.

How can you take all these days
(What is inside of me what have I done?)
and throw them away
(Is this the only way that you will notice me?)
as I sit here waiting for you (for you)
(Dead words for closed ears all this is sung for you)

-Emery

"Isn’t that the thing with fantasies? Fantasies are absolutely safe, as long as you never try to make them a reality. Whether you’re fantasizing about wife-swapping, or cafe/bookshops, it’s still a truism that they will always be safer when they are kept locked in your head."

Jane Green

Carolina Liar - Beautiful World

2010-01-16T12:44:00.000+08:00

Here it comes in the morning
I’m just trying to forget
Keep it real, keep it simple
And somehow just get out of bed
And this city is endless
I’m as cold as it’s stone
Yeah this city is endless
And I’m, I’m walking alone

Sunlight creeps in between the curtains
Lose the sheets there’s no time for sleep
I lie, I pretend ‘til I’m almost certain
It’s a beautiful world

I wanna ask for direction
But I don’t dare to disturb
I got a thing with affections
Yeah, that’s why I’m walking alone

Sunlight creeps in between the curtains
Lose the sheets there’s no time for sleep
I lie, I pretend ‘til I’m almost certain
It’s a beautiful world

Here it comes in the morning…

Sunlight creeps in between the curtains
Lose the sheets there’s no time for sleep
I lie, I pretend ‘til I’m almost certain
It’s a beautiful world
(Yeah, it’s a beautiful world)
la la la la
I pretend ‘til I’m almost certain
It’s a beautiful world

Yours, truly?

2010-01-16T12:40:00.004+08:00

It's so upsetting to talk to you.
I force myself to,
but it comes to a point that I just wanna give up.
Give up on hope. Love. You.

(I think this is my first failed attempt.
I don't get you at all.
What the hell.
All the mixed signals.)
..............
HOPEYOUBURNINHELLANDDIEWITHALLYOURBOOKSJNKDWEIUHJBWEIBUDIEHAHAHAHA
I'M SO MEAN,
I'M KIDDING.
I think you're really cute.
\Y/

HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA
TALKING RUBBISH AS USUAL :O

You're not worth it. Period.
I'm over you.

A levels...
Be mine.

Unfortunately,

2010-01-16T12:38:00.001+08:00

"

… I think of you

landlocked and lost

in another element —

your body.

The sea teaches me

love is a wish

not for safety

but for destruction.

I am not ashamed

to admit it:

I love you

the way water loves.

Which is to say

I wish the world

were through with you

so you could return to me

ravaged, upon this shore:

a shell

held tight

inside my palm.
"

Gift, 2 by J. Neil C. Garcia

Ovulation overkill.

2010-01-16T00:27:00.002+08:00

I don't even know why I was so damn pissed off today.
I only get angry/upset over people I like.
Damn, I don't even (think) I like you that much.

Disappointed.

Ugh.

Sorry guys, it's not your fault.
It's...
:)

IDONTWANNABESOMEFSTATIONMASTERSHITANYMOREJNWEHIUFFJE.
)':
Sob sob.

Goodnight.
Training tmr?

PMS FTW \Y/

Thanks tennis team love <3
THAT'S WHY WE MUST SHOW THE J1S THAT WE ARE REALLY CLOSE ANYOHHOW :D
LOVE YALL.

Sha-la-la!!!!!

2010-01-14T20:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the happiest day of my holidays + 2010. Or my life.
Whatever.
Hope tmr will be too :)

I'm dying..........

2010-01-10T00:05:00.001+08:00

Whoever's gonna fail Biology test on Term 1 Week 1.
Sisterzzzzzzzzzz 4 lyfeeeeeeezxxz.

XOXO,
Mrs lam gonna kill me I can already imagine.
I just need someone to do worse than me :D
All you have to do is get 5 marks.
I'll get 6? Maybe 5.5?
:)

Dying to go out with you.

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

2010-01-09T23:54:00.003+08:00

Monday - 3pm
Tuesday - WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF + 3 period break hansum boyz come find me from 10.50 am tyvm and study with my in the library <3
Wednesday - usual
Thursday - 3pm
Friday - 10.50 am! AM! AM!!!!!!!!!!!

Wth then I've got trng on Wednesdays and Fridays (and Saturdays).
How unlucky am I?

Thanks to H1 chem
(new tutorial classsssssssss, new... everything?)
*crossed fingers.

I'm praying every night.

I'M ROLLING MY EYES TO HEAVEN AND THEN HELL AND BACK AGAIN
BECAUSE YOU JUST... DON'T GET IT.
Or maybe you're evading (my pursuits).

Grah, 2010 seems bleak.

I feel so I-bust-the-windows-of-your-car-and-though-it-didn't-mend-my-broken-heart

2010-01-08T23:37:00.004+08:00

Jealously....
It's a really bittersweet feeling.
But I'm getting used to having really evil thoughts of people (of the opposite sex) around you :)

See you later, alligator.

XOXO

2010-01-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

Tennis camp was (surprisingly) fun.
Full of shit as Coach Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa would put it!!!
hahahah yeah but holllla fun.

But wasn't as tiring as I expected it to be.
Made a couple of new (good) friends!!!
Looking forward to trng from now on :)

Shan't be naggy and boring.
But school's such a bitch.
Tomorrow would be day 1 of bitch-ness.

Damn.
I got so much work to do at least the timetable's better than 2009.

Hello 2010,
I won't say "next year" anymore.

I'M READY FOR A LEVELS.
Not.

Tamia feat. Talib Kweli - Officially Missing You (Remix)

2010-01-08T23:28:00.004+08:00

Thanks JOY CHIN!!!!!!!
I'm officially hooked.

[Talib Kweli]
Yeah yeah
Now everytime we walk up in the spot the corks pop
We got the floor hot, we gonn' to rock 'til 4 o'clock
We used to keep a trick up my sleeve to get a chick to leave
But now we've got another one of them calling me
All eyes on you when you walk by
Your guy is doing stunts like the four guys
(Come on) All I know you make me feel like six million dollars, star tonight
The type to make every nigga holla

[Tamia]
All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Ooh baby tell me why'd you have to go
'Cause this pain I feel it won't go away
And today
I'm officially missing you
I thought from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today
I'm officially missing you

[chorus]
Ooh... can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby, say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially...

[Tamia]
All I do is lay around
Two ears full tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at...
Don't know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby, safe to say
That I'm... officially missing you

[Talib Kweli]
You know what? Yo
Baby be giving me the proper dance
Now that I'm the man
These cats stand no type of chance
Come close enough to show you how we supposed to love
You know they say we can't smoke in the club
But I'm cool 'cause your love is like a potion, a drug
These emotions got me open like buds
Of roses, club closes and I'm headed home wit' you
You know when you're going, I'm gonn' miss you
It's so official, oh!

[Tamia]
Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you

[chorus]
Ooh... ain't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby, say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially... missin' you

[Tamia]
Ohhh
You know that I'm missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is cold raindrops
Ooh yeah
And I'm... officially missing you

Guffawzxzzx

2010-01-08T21:28:00.001+08:00

I find it weird when people say "I hate it when people ask if you're okay when you're obviously not"

BUT WHAT THE HELL ARE THEY SUPPOSED TO DO.
Hahahha :D

(you're supposed to agree with me on this one)

Yuck,
I'm NOT lesbian tyvm.

(not so) Merry christmas

2009-12-30T19:39:00.001+08:00

I would wear every single bloody gorgeous piece on this show.
DAMN IT'S GOOD TO BE RICH.
D:

My zettai kareshi

2009-12-19T01:51:00.004+08:00

If I had S$5000...
I would buy a Vespa 1978 (in red) and repaint it to hello kitty pink.
But before that I would have to take like 10 odd jobs, one of them probably include cleaning toilet bowls or washing dishes or sth!!!!!!
(cos it costs 5500)
HAHAHA then I will wait til I'm 18 and I'll finally ride it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO

Just you wait and see.
And now I cannot have my Chanel green nails D: <

^^

2009-12-18T16:07:00.001+08:00

And I'll never love again,
Oh friend you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

P.s. second round of shopping?

8)

2009-12-14T16:14:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY.

Best birthday because I spent it with my best friends in the whole wide world,
literally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(this feels like a tribute to my own bl*g)

2009-12-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

what the fuck is wrong with people

.

2009-12-13T23:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPPPPYYYYYYYYY BIRTHDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!
(to me)

I passssssssssed,
I didn't ask you out!!!!!!!!
:D

Note to self:

2009-12-06T02:14:00.004+08:00

So fail. Be bad at things. Be embarrassed. Be afraid. Be vulnerable. Go out on a limb or two or twelve, & you will fall & it’ll hurt. But the harder you fall, the farther you will rise. The louder you fail, the clearer your future becomes. Failure is a gift, welcome it. There are people who spend their whole lives wondering how they became the people they became, how certain chances passed them by, why they didn’t take the road less traveled Those people aren’t you. You have front row seats to your own transformation, & in transforming yourself, you might even transform the world. & it will be electric, & I promise you it will be terrifying. Embrace that; embrace the new person you’re becoming. This is your moment. I promise you, it is now, now, not two minutes from now, not tomorrow, but really now Own that; know that deep in your bones. & go to sleep every night knowing that, wake up every morning remembering that. & then…keep going.

Everyone watch me as I descend
Into a feeling that's overwhelming me
I finally stopped, stopped making sense

I can't stop talking to myself, I'm a desperate cry for help

Run don't walk the sky is falling through
Don't talk, tonight I'm so confused

Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt

2009-12-06T02:00:00.001+08:00

“At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.”

— Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy

Just beat it!!!

MUSE

2009-12-06T01:53:00.001+08:00

Lykke Li - Dance dance dance

This is...

2009-12-06T01:32:00.003+08:00

How I feeel about you now.
Damn.

"Oh love. Oh love. Oh my love."
THIS REMINDS ME OF
"MY HUMPS, MY HUMPS MY HUMPS MY HUMPS" HAHAHAHAH

Let's talk about love.

2009-12-06T01:25:00.004+08:00

I wonder how people can find so much depressing things to say.
Like quotes and stuff.
Any-oh-how!
Here's my new favourite page: http://www.flickr.com/photos/notebookdoodles
P.S. I really hate my circumstances now.

2010 isn't gonna be a good year.
Just a gut feeling for someone that's about to be in junior college year 2.
Oh, scratch that.
TEMASEK junior college year 2.

Now that's a whole lot different.
Damn, I hate the school system.
Fuck 4 h2s.

:)
PEACE.
I NEED SOUTH PARK, NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
uTorrent is my baby cos I just downloaded the entire season 3, 4, 5 and 8!!!!!!!!!!!
:D
And moremoremore GLEE, please!!!!!!!
(Damn, my studying plans are an epic failllllllllllure)

At least I'm working out and burning 289 kcal or was it just CAL?
Yeah by running on threadmill for half an hour today.
(Y)
What the emoticon means to me: Yipee.

Quotesquotesquotes happythoughts.

2009-11-24T02:20:00.003+08:00

Peter: Forget them, Wendy. Forget them all. Come with me where you'll never, never have to worry about grown up things again.
Wendy: Never is an awfully long time.

Smee: Captain, the ice is melting, the sun is out, and the flowers are all in bloom...
Captain Hook: He's back.

Wendy: Why do you hate him so?

Pirate: Beg for your lives.
John: Sirs! My brother and I are English gentlemen. English gentlemen do not beg!
Michael: [Michael gets on his knees] ... Please. Please, don't kill me!
John: [John gets n his knees too] Please, don't kill me either!

Peter: Ready to lose the other one?
Captain Hook: Not this time.

Captain Hook: [to Wendy] Didst thou ever want to be a pirate?

Wendy: We must leave at once... before we, in turn, are forgotten.

Wendy: Might I have time to consider your generous offer?
Captain Hook: Absolutely. You must!

Captain Hook: My new obsession is you. Not dear Peter Pan or his whereabouts.

Captain Hook: None of my crew will follow you... I swear it.

Wendy: What would mother think of my becoming a pirate?

Smee: Pan did you a favor, did he, Captain?
Captain Hook: A favor? He threw my hand to a crocodile, the beast liked it so much, it's followed me ever since, licking its lips for the rest of me... YOU CALL THAT A FAVOR?

[Wendy sews Peter's shadow to his feet]
Peter: Oh, the cleverness of me.
Wendy: Of course, I did nothing...
Peter: You did a little.

Wendy: Oh, the cleverness of you.

Peter: If you wish it.
Slightly: If you wish it?
Peter: IF YOU WISH IT.

Captain Hook: If I were you, I'd give up!
Peter: If you were me, I'd be ugly.

Wendy: Peter. You won't forget me, will you?
Peter: Me? Forget? Never.
Wendy: Will you ever come back?
Peter: To hear stories... About me.

Hook: And now, Peter Pan, you shall die.
Peter: To die would be an awfully big adventure.

Smee: Very exciting - two dead already!

Peter: I do believe in fairies, I do, I do.

Pirate: [advancing towards the children on Hook's ship] Stop that noise or I'll run you through! Believe in fairies, I do I do!

[Wendy has just become the Lost Boys' mother]
Peter: Discipline. That's what fathers believe in. We must spank the children immediately before they try to kill you again. In fact, we should kill them.
Wendy: Father. I agree that they are... perfectly horrid, but... kill them and they should think themselves... important.
The Lost Boys: So important, Peter.
Curly: And unique.
Wendy: I, propose something far more dreadful. Medicine. The sticky, sweet kind.
The Lost Boys: Kill us, Peter.

Wendy: This belongs to you, and always will

Peter: I want always to be a boy, and have fun.
Wendy: You say so, but I think it is your biggest pretend.

Wendy: Where do you live?
Peter: Second to the right, and then straight on till morning.
Wendy: They put that on the letters?
Peter: Don't get any letters.
Wendy: But your mother gets letters.
Peter: Don't have a mother.
Wendy: No wonder you were crying.
Peter: I wasn't crying about mothers. I was crying because I can't get this shadow to stick. And I wasn't crying.

Mr. Darling: [shouting] No. I must become a man that children fear and adults respect, or we shall all end up in the street.
Mrs. Darling: George, not so loud.
Aunt Millicent: George, the neighbors will hear.
Mr. Darling: Let them hear. Let the whole world know. This
[indicating Nanna]
Mr. Darling: is not a nurse. This... is a dog.
[to Wendy]
Mr. Darling: Tomorrow, you will begin your instruction with Aunt Millicent. It's time for you to grow up.

Peter: There's mermaids.
Wendy: Mermaids?
Peter: Indians.
John and Michael: Indians?
Peter: Pirates.
John and Michael: Pirates? Wahoo.

[Wendy kisses Peter Pan and he starts to glow]
Captain Hook: Pan... you're pink.

Wendy: I think you have, Peter. And I daresay you've felt it yourself. For something... or... someone?
Peter: Never. Even the sound of it offends me.
[Wendy tries to touch his face, and he jumps away]
Peter: Why do you have to spoil everything? We have fun, don't we? I taught you to fly and to fight. What more could there be?
Wendy: There is so much more.
Peter: What? What else is there?
Wendy: I don't know. I guess it becomes clearer when you grow up.
Peter: Well, I will not grow up. You cannot make me!

Peter: [after bumping his head on waking up] I was not asleep.

Wendy: Once upon a time there was a boy named Peter Pan, who decided not to grow up.
Hook: Skip the prologue
Wendy: So he flew away to Neverland where the pirates are.
Hook: What fun he must have had.
Wendy: Yes but he was rather lonely.
Hook: Lonely? He needed a Wendy.
Pirate: I need a Wendy.
Hook: Why a Wendy?
Wendy: He liked my stories.
Hook: What stories?
Wendy: Cinderella, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty.
Hook: Love stories?
Wendy: Adventures! In which good triumphs over evil!
Hook: They all end in a kiss.
Wendy: gasps
Hook: A kiss. He does feel! He feels about you.
Hook: She told him stories. He taught her to fly. How?
Wendy: You just think happy thoughts. They lift you into the air.
Hook: Alas, I have no happy thoughts.
Wendy: That brings you down!
Hook: [Hook threatens to cut Wendy's throat with his hook] How else?
Michael: Fairy dust! You need fairy dust!
The Lost Boys: Michael!
Hook: What of Pan? Would unhappy thoughts bring him down?
Wendy: He has no unhappy thoughts.

Wendy: Boy, why are you crying?

Michael: Mother, can anything harm us after the night lights are lit?
Mrs. Darling: No, Precious. They are the eyes a mother leaves behind to guard her children.

[Peter and Wendy land to talk to mermaids to find John and Michael]
Wendy: Oh, How sweet.
[Peter looks disgusted]
Wendy: What? Are mermaids not sweet?
Peter: They'll sweetly drown you if you get too close

Slightly: Well, we have our orders! Shoot the Wendy bird.

[Peter sees a boy flying next to him, forgetting he has just met him minutes before]
Peter: Who are you?
John: I'm John.
Peter: John.

[Mr. and Mrs. Darling are rushing up the stairs, right before Peter takes the children to Neverland]
Story Narrator: It would be delightful to report that they reached the nursery in time... but then, there would be no story.

Captain Hook: She was leaving you, Pan! Your Wendy was leaving you. Why should she stay? What have you to offer? You are incomplete. Let us now take a peep into the future, shall we?
[Hook and Peter start to fight again]
Captain Hook: 'Tis the fair Wendy. She's in her nursery. The window is shut.
Peter: I'll open it.
Captain Hook: I'm afraid the window is barred.
Peter: I'll call out her name!
Captain Hook: She can't hear you...
Peter: No!
Captain Hook: She can't see you.
Peter: Wendy!
Captain Hook: She's forgotten all about you.
Peter: Stop! Please! Stop it!

[During a swordfight between Peter and Wendy]
Tootles: Mother and father are fighting again...

Peter: Well I will not grow up! You cannot make me! I will banish you like Tinkerbell.
Wendy: I WILL NOT BE BANISHED!
Peter: Then go home. Go home and grow up. And take your feelings with you!

Peter: To live would be an awfully big adventure.

Wendy: Peter... I should like to give you a kiss.
[Peter holds his hand out]
Wendy: Don't you know what a kiss is?
Peter: I shall know when you give me one.

Hook: Old... Alone... Done for.

Slightly: I couldn't find the house, and now everyone has a mother except me.

[On Wendy being their mother]
Slightly: And isn't she just first class?

Slightly: Brace yerselves lads.

Slightly: I remember kisses, let me see. Aye, that is a kiss. A powerful thing.

Slightly: Then she must stay here and die.
The Lost Boys and Peter Pan: [gasp] No.
Slightly: Of course not. How could I have thought that? Stupid.

Peter: [all of the boys hold out their hands] They're a bit dirty.
Slightly: She must stay here and DIE!
Peter: NO!
Slightly: How could I have thought that? Stupid... sorry.

Slightly: If Hook discovers our hideout, he'll gut us.
Wendy: How dreadful!
Slightly: Oh, we live for it!

[gazing up at Wendy and Peter dancing in mid-air]
Captain Hook: He has found himself a... Wendy. And Hook is all alone.

[Hook asked Tiger Lily if she had seen Peter Pan, and she replies with a foreign language, and then spits at him]
Smee: She says sorry, but no.

Mrs. Darling: There are many different kinds of bravery. There's the bravery of thinking of others before one's self. Now, your father has never brandished a sword nor fired a pistol, thank heavens. But he has made many sacrifices for his family, and put away many dreams.
Michael: Where did he put them?
Mrs. Darling: He put them in a drawer. And sometimes, late at night, we take them out and admire them. But it gets harder and harder to close the drawer... He does. And that is why he is brave.

Peter: Then you are my friend no more.

Captain James Hook: Proud and insolent youth! Prepare to meet thy doom!

Smee: It's all a bit tragic, really, isn't it?

John: [upon meeting Peter] You offend reason, sir.
Michael: Mm-hmm.
John: [sees Peter lift into the air] I should like to offend it with you

Peter: You can't catch me and make me a man.

Peter: I am the best there ever was!

Peter: She is to tell us stories. She is...
Slightly: Dead.
Curly: Tragic.
Nibs: Awful. Good shot, though.

Mrs. Darling: And what's your name?
Nibs: Nibs. I plan the battles.
Mrs. Darling: Would you like a mother, Nibs?
Nibs: [crying] Yes!

Captain Hook: It is your requiem mass, boy!

Captain Hook: Split my infinitives!

Captain Hook: How like a girl!

Captain Hook: So Peter Pan, this is all your doing?
Peter: Aye James Hook, it's all my doing.

Story Narrator: But I was never to see Peter Pan again. Now I tell his story to my children and they will tell it to their children, and so it will go on - for all children grow up... Except one.

Peter: Promise me one thing... Leave Hook to me.
Wendy: I promise.

Captain Hook: Fly to the rescue, Pan. I'll shoot you... right through your noble intentions.

Wendy: Littlest first. Michael?
[Wendy snaps back to "reality"]
Wendy: Michael. John. My brothers!
Peter: Who?

Captain Hook: [Guessing who he is] Vegetable?
Peter: No...
Captain Hook: Mineral?
Peter: No...
Captain Hook: Animal?
Peter: Yes.
Captain Hook: Man?
Peter: NO!
Captain Hook: Boy?
Peter: Yes!
Captain Hook: Ordinary boy?
Peter: No!
Captain Hook: Wonderful boy?
Peter: Yes! Do you give up?

Wendy: My unfulfilled ambition is to write a great novel in three parts about my adventures.
Aunt Millicent: What adventures?
Wendy: I've yet to have them, but they will be perfectly thrilling.

Peter: Wendy? One girl's worth more than 20 boys.
Wendy: [under bed sheets] You really think so?
Peter: I live with boys, the lost boys, they are well named!
Wendy: Who are they?
[asking as she gets out from under sheets and makes Peter fall off the bed]
Peter: Children who fall out of their prams when the nurse is not looking. If they are not claimed in seven days, they are sent to the Neverland.
Wendy: Are there girls too?
Peter: Girls are much to clever to fall out of their prams.
[he says as he looks through the heart in Wendy's bed]

Twin: Do you tell stories?
Wendy: Yes.
Curly: Then you're perfect.

Peter: Was it you, Tink?
[Tink gets a halo]
Tink: Hallelujah! Hallelujah!

Hook: If you are Hook... then who am I?
Peter: You... are a... codfish!

Peter: Tinkerbell... She's my fairy.
Wendy: But, there's no such thing as f-
[Peter flies up and closes her mouth]
Peter: [firmly] Don't say that. Every time someone says that, a fairy somewhere falls down dead.
[he goes to look for Tinkerbell]
Peter: And I'll never find her if she's dead!
Wendy: You don't mean to tell me... there's a *fairy* in this room?

Wendy: Sir, you are both ungallant and deficient!
Peter: How am I deficient?
Wendy: You're just a boy.

Wendy: My parents wanted me to grow up.
Captain Hook: Growing up is such a barbarous business, full of inconvenience... and pimples.

Captain Hook: What of Pan? Will unhappy thoughts bring him down too?
Wendy: He has no unhappy thoughts.
Captain Hook: Oh... Well, what if his Wendy... walked the plank!

Smee: [to Hook, after Wendy falls off the plank] Did you hear her hit the water? Cos I didn't.

John: Michael, are you shot?
Michael: I haven't checked yet, but there's something worser.
John: Oh, what could be worse?
Michael: My thoughts aren't very happy!
[they both fall]

Children: I do believe in fairies, I do! I do!

Captain Hook: You're a tragedy!
Peter: Me? Tragic?

Slightly: So looking forward to being your son.

Slightly: Wendy lady, for you we built this house, with a door knocker.
Tootles: And a chimney.
Slightly: [whispers] 1, 2, 3...
The Lost Boys: Please be our mother!

Wendy: Peter, I'm sorry I must grow up...
[Hook grabs her]
Wendy: [to Hook] It is just a thimble.
Captain Hook: By all means my beauty, give Peter Pan your precious thimble.
Wendy: This belongs to you and always will.
[Kisses Peter]
John: That was no thimble...
Michael: That was a hidden kiss.

Slightly: Brace yourself, lads. He's going to spin!

From Inside Out

2009-11-24T01:49:00.004+08:00

Hillsong United - From Inside Out

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
my heart and my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Chorus 2x
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out

What you lose on the swings,
you gain on the roundabouts.

Sai qun shi ma,
yan zhi fei fu!
(塞翁失马焉知非福)

I'm just gonna pray.

And I'll also pray for you, I hope you will find true friends.
Because I'm telling you here, you should ditch them already.
And since you can't accept me, then...
I wish you well! :)
(I'll get over you)

JESUS, BECAUSE OF YOU,
I'M FREE! :D

I surrender.

2009-11-24T01:40:00.001+08:00

listening to hillsong makes me wanna delete all my bad posts
and remove all the *&^%%#$ shit in my life.

my life is in Your hands.

MOCA

2009-11-23T23:51:00.000+08:00

Lady Gaga (with Francesco Vezzoli) in costume by Miuccia Prada, hat by Frank Gehry.

Where do we go from here?

2009-11-23T01:50:00.001+08:00

Fate fell short this time.
Your smile fades in the summer.
Place your hand in mine,
I'll leave when I wanna.

Are we alone, do you feel it?
So lost and disillusioned

&

2009-11-23T01:23:00.003+08:00

I just realised that when I'm really upset, the only 2 songs I'll listen to is:
With Me - Sum 41
and
Best of Me - Sum 41
Ha ha ha?

_|_

2009-11-23T01:09:00.000+08:00

Who I Am Hates Who I Am

2009-11-23T01:05:00.001+08:00

Crash and burn.

:O

2009-11-18T02:53:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAAHHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love Mrs.Lam!!!!!!!!

2009-11-18T02:12:00.005+08:00

Hello it's 3am on a holiday morning and I'm guilty.
Guilty of not studying.............
(FUCK I HATE THE LETTER F IT'S ALL POPPED OUT BECAUSE I ACCIDENTALLY PUT MY NEW CLOTHES ON MY PENCIL CASE ON TOP OF MY KEYBOARDDDDDDD AND NOW I HAVE TO PRESS IT REAL HARD BEF&^%$#@ORE THE LETTER COMES OUT UGHZ)

Hello again, let's try again (hahah).
Anyway I'm friggin guilt-tripped!!!!!!!!!!!!
1) Not going to Faith's birthday was one.
2) (Almost) forgetting Amanda's
3) UNABLE TO SETTLE DOWN AND LIKE GET DOWN TO FRIGGIN STUDYING ALREADY
4) I totally feel like stealing my brother's money right now. I'm uber broke. Like zero-dollars-in-my-MNG-wallet-broke-and-I-can't-even-sell-it-cos-it's-worthless-broke.
5) I'm supposed to be on a strict ban (act of discipline, much) ON THE COMPUTER SLASH INTERNET SLASH ANYTHING THAT ISN'T MADE FROM TREES AND INK.

Damn,
everyday, all I wanna say is:
FML.

Any-oh-how-di-dddddaaaaaaaaeeeeee-eeeeeee-oooooo.
(Yeah, try pronouncing it that way)
I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M GONNA BE A SENIOR!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
Fingers are crossed if I can keep my 4H2s though.
FUCK MATH! (Y) or rather, S!

Wellz, I have like top 3 things on my head right now.
1. Move into Casa fina (no, this is NOT a joke)
2. Pack my unbelievably JUNK room oh wait, let me correct, it's a PIG sty.
3. Write my cards (TO MY 16TH GAMMA HC HAHAHAHAHHAHA + Christmas)

Because I've already completed:
1) BUYING ALL THE NECESSARY STATIONERY + PLANNER THAT CAN LAST ME FOR 1 WHOLE YEAR. OR 10 TENS, ACTUALLY. I THINK I JUST SPENT LIKE 1/4 OF MY MAID'S SALARY. NOT THAT I KNOW HOW MUCH SHE EARNS ANYWAY.
2) Calling people to ask them out. I GOT REJECTED BY EVERYONE.
3) Shopping (I'm kinda sick and tired of shopping. I've already have NO SPACE in my cupboard to fill anymore clothes. I kinda spent alot in BKK alr? YEAH MY MOM ALMOST HAD ME GROUNDED FOR MY NEXT LIFE.

And because I'm grounded for life so I can't really do much, thanks dad, love you.

Plus, I really hate this blog.
I wanna delete it (BUT YOU AND I KNOW THAT I'LL NEVER DO IT.)
I'm such a ppppppppppppp. :)

Oh and I watched 2012. Don't watch it.
And also Hannah Montana.
I WANT TO MARRY THAT GUY HAHAHAHAHAH.
BUT SERIOUSLY, I GOT SOMETHING AGAINST COUNTRY MUSIC AND COUNTRY PEOPLE. IT'S JUST..... WRONG.
Feels like I'm gonna get rabies if I visit the countryside.
(Maybe that's why I don't like Taylor Swift)
NAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH, IT'S MORE THAN THAT :D

Anyway, I think I should tell people that I'm attempting to be MIA so everyone should just quit bugging me already.
Don't ask me out unless you're:
a) hot/cute
b) songhon
c) shufen/justina/charislynnrachel cos i wanna have a sleepover but i can't i can't i can't i can't ): and i wanna dress up and go out and wear 5 pairs of my new heels and put on makeup and wear a micromini and get drunk but i can't get drunk (it's in my chinese blood) and i have to beg + study for 10 days before i can spend a night out/angeline/iynyi/school/fatimahfaith/amanda IMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! x10/dentist WHOOHOO I'M FINALL GONNA LET ME TEETH'S LITTLE BOXES SEE THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD THAT IS UNHEALTHY FOOD + CEREAL AND JUNK!!!!!!!!!!! (:/ cell/.......
ok whatever, if anyone ask me out I won't reject them, because I can't.
BECAUSE I'M SCARED IF I REJECT THEM THEN THEY WON'T ASK ME OUT ANYMORE ):
Hahahahhahahaha bullshit.
Okay, that's half true cos I won't wanna go out with someone who blows me offffffffff!!!!!! ):
Yeah and also cos I'm nice!!!!!!!!! :D
Yay, there. I said it :)

Alright this is an extremely unmeaningful post.
I just wanna wish....
Bon voyageeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (*)
):,
No wait, I hate that person &^%$#@

WELL, HAPPY HOLIDAYS PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is the end of my wonderful life!
No more emo post :D
(I did it!!!!!)

P.S.

New shopping list/resolution before 2010!
1) Disposable camera
2) Turquoise (aka Alexa Chung's and Rachel Bilson's) Nail Polish
3) A final trip to BYSI - I wanna get like 10 stuffffffffffff@! (damn the letter F, I think it's a sign from God to stop using the four lettterrrrr word)
4) To convince my mom to lend me her blackbagpack (sounds so damn kute, right?) but I hate the aunty brand it's friggin Sembonia and it was (apparently) expensive WTP
5) Longhair long hair long hair grow grow grow mali mali homzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zimboomba!!!!!!
6) Running/swimming while my dad plays golf @ country club everyday odd weekday (zomg i'm praying for this one) PROM NIGHT HERE I COME HAHAHA WTF I MEANT ANTI-PROM NIGHT HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
7) Find a gay bestfriend to live with (like roomates, yowwwwwww)
8) NEW MANTRA: SET YOUR EYES ON THE PRIZE (academics + YouYouYou!!!!)
9) Move into casafina pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
10) Find chem and gp tuition (anyone got numbers?) and create a uber smart study group to mug with next year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A LEVELS, BABYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!
11) (most impt) KENNETH CHEW JUNWEI GET STRAIGHT As FOR HIS 4 H2s!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Amen.

G'night.
And Merry Christmas, everyone :>

o.O

2009-11-11T23:26:00.002+08:00

1) Must learn how to shoo flies more glam-ly
2) GUYS ARE DAMN HOT IN SUITS
3) I miss watching My Name is Kim Sam Sooon (I still think the guy who dumped her is damn cute &^%$#@)
4) WALAO SOMEONE HELP ME FIND ENG SUBS PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

:)

(P.S. like that how to pass A levels????)

/edit
LOL
SCRATCH THAT:
I FOUND ALR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-11T21:08:00.004+08:00

OMG HOW MUCH WEIGHT HAS SHE LOST.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA ;D

Damn, she's amazinggggggggggggggggggggggg.
:)

Seriously, just join Team Gaga.
No point hating her.
She's taking over the world...
One. Step. At. A. Time.

P.S. every second you refresh the video, it's like there's yet another comment omgomgomgomgomg :D

/edit

FINALLY FOUND A GOOD VIDEO:

OMG AT THE END SHE'S LIKE TOTALLY COVERED IN BLOOD.
But her eyes!!!!!!!
LOOK AT THOSE EYES.
That brilliant make up!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Girl Crush (3)

2009-11-06T23:39:00.003+08:00

Daisy Lowe for MNG.
I LOVE DAISYYYYYYY LOWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
MORE AND MORE BOOKINGS FOR HER PLEASE!!!!
Peaches and Alexa and Chloe move aside, please.

I JUST HAD TO

2009-11-05T23:13:00.001+08:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGG
Starstruk

& Leighton Meester has a new song - Somebody to Love.
HAHAHA THE VIDEO KINDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA TRASHY D:

Red bull gives you wings!

2009-11-04T20:31:00.002+08:00

I like the way you make me feel when you look into my eyes.
:)

(Who needs red bull when I've got you?)

P.S.
_|_ PW.

ASTRIDDDDDDDDDD!

2009-11-03T00:57:00.001+08:00

Watch watch, COMMENT COMMENT:

:D

Superbad + Pineapple Express

2009-10-31T13:01:00.002+08:00

I feel so strange, I feel so weak
I've walked a world of empty streets
In search alone, I've searched alone.

But you're still in my mind
You're still in my mind
And here's where the sound
Of my tears hits the ground
Just like the rain
Just like the rain.

Camwhoring and movies that are so-bad-that-it's-good are the best therapy!!!!!!

I promised.

2009-10-30T21:31:00.002+08:00

I promise to stay happy.
But I'm only happy when my friends are happy.
):

&

Regardless if my pictures
they don't line your mirror
Regardless you know that
I'll still wait for your call

Taking Back Sunday - Cute Without The 'E' (Cut From The Team)

2009-10-30T21:29:00.003+08:00

Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know...

Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?
Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?

And all of this was all your fault
And all of this

(I stay jealous)

Favourite couple hands down.

2009-10-30T00:47:00.002+08:00

I love Luke Worrall more than anyttttttttthinggggggggggg.
I'm honestly jealous of osbourne.
^%$#@%$^
(Listen to your daddy lah, don't get marrrrrrrried OMG IT WON'T WORK OUT,
as much as I hope it would, though!!!!)

Kkkkkkkkkkkkkraazy

2009-10-29T20:19:00.002+08:00

I let 2 people down.
All thanks to SMS.
):
Sorry.

TO YOU: HAHAHAH REALLY WILL HANG OUT SOON OK, I PROMISE TO CALL YOU LIKE SOON AND WE GO OUT PROVIDED YOU BOOK OUT FROM CAMP OR WHATEVER YOU CALL THAT. HAHAHAHAH. We. Need. To. Talk. Misssssed you muchlyyyyyzzzzzzz. I just don't know how to reply you now hahaha cos I got this feeling you're pissed off at me >)

TO YOUUUUUUUUUU: PROMISE TO WRITE YOU A CARD! GOOD LUCK FOR A LEVELS THANKS FOR MSGING ME 1 WEEK BEFORE PROMOS TO WISH ME LUCK! YOU GAVE ME MOTIVATION TO STUDY (: GET YOUR STRAIGHT A'S!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And today's muse:
Now that's an inspiration.
I don't think I'll regret.

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-29T20:08:00.004+08:00

I want long blondeeeeeee braided hair and turquoise nails.
Long hair long hair long hair grow grow grow grow.
Nun nun nun nun.
Pretty please.
Damn, Singapore.

I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

Chinese A levels in 4 fucking days????
Someone shoot me now.
I don't want to blog 4 days from now complaining that I didn't do my best, etc.
I REALLY want that fucking A.
Omg.
Hahhahah anyway Bangkok was awesum.
I'm really stupid, it's official.
I didn't bring my battery in my camera-.-

WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

So no pictures.
Just a truckload of gifts that no one knows about.
HAHAHAHAH
You guys won't get it unless................
You come to my house to get it OR
YOU SUCK UP TO ME AND GIVE ME 10 HUGS TOMORROW.
Oh and we have to exchange math results.
BECAUSE NO ONE GETS LOWER THAN 39.

Yipeeeeeeee dipeeeee do.
I love 01/09. I love my pw group. I love GAMMA.
(titans was quite fun, I must admit)
Hahhaha got to talk to Annyi a whole lot:)
Okay, time for me to stop blabbering because rule number 1 states that:
I can't be personal on my blog anymore.
Unless I change the link.

Alright, time to chat on msn.
Hahahha contemplating what time I should start mugging Chinese.
10pm?

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
WHY I NEVER GET BEST IMPROVEMENT AWARD. HAHAHAHAHHA
SHIT.
I SHOULD'VE JUST FAILED EVERYTHING DURING JCTS LIKE GET 1 MARK FOR EVERYTHING.
THEN GET A FRIGGIN A FOR PROMOS.
): <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

Whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr go fret about your H3s.
While I worry about I can keep my 4H2s.

Bye bitches.
(just rub it in already)

I want your lovin'
I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends

바보처럼

2009-10-19T21:02:00.002+08:00

....What was I looking forward to anyway?
):

Blink-182 - Dammit

2009-10-04T23:38:00.002+08:00

It's alright / to tell me / what you think / about me
I won't try / to argue / or hold it / against you
I know that / you're leaving / you must have / your reasons
The season / is calling / and your pictures / are falling down

The steps that / I retrace / the sad look / on your face
The timing / and structure / did you hear / he fucked her?
A day late / a buck short / I'm writing / the report
On losing / and failing / when I move / I'm flailing now

and it'll happen once again I'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
Sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
And I've been here for too long
To face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up

Well I guess this is growing up

And maybe / I'll see you / at a movie / sneak preview
You'll show up / and walk by / on the arm / of that guy
And I'll smile / and you'll wave / we'll pretend / it's okay
The charade / it won't last / when he's gone / I won't come back

And it'll happen once again
You'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
And sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
And you've been there for too long
To face this on your own
Well I guess this is growing up

Well, I guess this is growing up [4x]
Well, I guess this is growing up

IMAGINE ME SINGING THIS SONG,
JUMPING UP AND DOWN,
SCREAMING EVERY SINGLE LYRIC.
Loveit.
I wish someone could sing with me everyday.

Juxtaposed here with you

2009-10-04T23:33:00.000+08:00

Ashley > Promotional examinations

okokok last one

2009-10-04T22:40:00.004+08:00

WHAT HAVE YOU DONE IN THE PAST SCHOOL YEAR?
HAVE YOU…

[x] skipped class? HAHAHAHHAHHAHA CHINESE CLASSES AND GP LESSONS BLOODY WASTE OF TIME AND CHEMISTRY, WHEN I HAVEN'T COMPLETED HOMEWORK ;D
[x] liked a girl/guy?
[x] hugged someone at school? EVERYONE.
[x] gotten a detention? TWICE.
[x] cried in school? I HATE YOU, MR TONG.
[x] made new friends? OG7! OGLS! ORIENTATION! TENNIS!
[x] gone to a dance? DANCED, TOO.
[x] been to a pep rally (like SC?)
[ ] watched a football game
[x] watched a soccer game AND GOT SCOLDED BY MR LEE FOR TALKING TOO LOUDLY
[ ] watched a baseball game
[x] watched a volleyball game HAHAHHAHA MANY TIMES.
[x] watched a tennis match DUH?
[x] watched a basketball game YEAH ONCE, COS TENGRUI TOLD ME TO.
[x] watched a track meet YESSSSSSSSSH AND GAMMA WON SPORTS DAY
[ ] watched a wrestling match
[ ] watched a lacrosse game
[x] fought with a teacher? I HATE YOU MR TONG
[x] got a 100% on a test? CHINESE TING XIE!!!!!!!
[x] walked to school HAHAH RAN TO SCHOOL
[ ] drove to school
[x] got dropped off at school YUP
[x] heard a rumor about yourself? JUSTIN LEE I STILL HATE YOU (HAHAHA WHO ASK YOU KEEP ASKING ME BIO)
[x] missed school when you weren’t sick? LAST THURSDAY I WAS SHITTING BUT IT WASN'T DIAHORREA
[x] failed a test UH MANY.
[x] made up some lame excuse for homework not being done? AHAHAHAHHAAHHA not as bad as dog ate my homework
[x] the teacher believed your lame excuse?
[ ] crushed on a teacher?
[ ] hit on a teacher?
[x] hate a teacher? I HATE YOU MR TONG
[ ] on student council?
[ ] in a club
[x] got an award?
[x] fallen asleep in school
[x] gotten in trouble for falling asleep in class
[x] had your phone go off in class
[x] had your phone taken away?
[x] lied to a teacher?
[x] laughed so hard you cried in class
[ ] eaten lunch in the bathroom?
[x] like your yearbook picture?
[ ] missed more than a week at once of school
[ ] enjoy school?
[ ] excited for summer?
[ ] taking summer school?
[ ] have a summer job?

1.THE PERSON WHO SAT TO YOUR RIGHT IN CLASS
- What is their name? MY IMAGINARY FRIEND LAST GP LESSON ASHLEY TAN
- Are you friends with this person? Y
- Do you talk in this class? Y UNTIL MS TAN REALISED
- Is this person your worst enemy? NO

2. THE PERSON WHO SITS TO THE RIGHT OF YOU IN SCIENCE
- What is their name? I SIT IN THE FRONT ROW
- Are they smart? I LIKE TO BELIEVE SO

3. ONE PERSON WHO SITS BY YOU AT LUNCH
- What is their name? Iynyi
- Can you talk to them about just anything? Yesssssssss mostly
- they your best friend? not quite? but really good fwenzzzzzz

Everyone who pretended to like me is gone.

2009-10-04T22:24:00.002+08:00

Name 3 males in your life: Shawn Lee, Nicholas Eng (HAHAHAH), Xuanzheng - 3 most recently talked to.

How many of them are family?: N

How many of them are exes?: N

Are any of them single?: Y

Are any of them gay?: HAHAHAHHAHAHAH no.

Are any of them younger than you?: N

Who’s the tallest?: Shawn

Who’s the smartest?: None!!!!!!!!! Xuanzheng lor

Who’s the oldest?: Nicholas

Who’s the most talkative?: NICHOLAS but actually ALL OF THEM ARE.

Who’s the most sensitive?: Nicholas Eng, definitely

Who’s the most relaxed?: Shawn

Who’s the biggest player?: CAN I SAY XUANZHENG?

Who drinks the most?: hmm. Shawn

Can any of them drive?: NO

Can any of them dance?: HAHAHHAHA I HOPE THEY WON'T

Can any of them sing?: I've heard Xuanzheng sing before! During Mr tan's HAHAH not bad. Uh nicholasssssss can.

Can any of them hold conversation? Duh

Have you ever kissed any of them?: EWWWWWWW NO

Have you ever cuddled any of them?: Eh I hugged Nicholas before!

Have you ever argued with any of them?: Nope.

Have you ever had a fight with any of them really?: N

Have you ever seen any of them cry?: N

Have you ever seen any of them bleed?: N

Have you ever seen any of them drunk?: HAHAHA yes

Have you ever seen any of them high?: Yes

Have any of them ever made you jealous?: YES

Are there any of them you would swap for a celebrity?: Nope. Because nicholas is gonna be one anyway.

LADIES

Name 3 females in your life: Shufen Justina Angeline HAHAHHAHA BECAUSE WE'RE BOTH A'S :)

Are any of them family?: Nope

Are any of them crushes?: HUH

Are any of them exes?: HAHHHAHA

Are any of them single?: ALL eh wait shufen is attached.

Who’s the prettiest?: Justina's the china beauty queen.

Who’s the most popular with boys?: Ehhhhh idk shufen and justina very on par.

Who’s the smartest?: Justina??????

Who’s the ditziest?: Angeline KANG YONG MAY HAHAH SUPERDUPER

Who’s the friendliest?: ANGELINE, SURPRISE SURPRISE. Shufen and justina are the LAZIEST-THEREFORE-ANTI-SOCIAL TYPE OF PEOPLE.

Who’s the bitchiest?: SHUFEN HAHAHAHAHHA

Who’s the easiest to talk to?: Shufen and Justina! We're closer!

Who’s the best drinker?: I don't think shufen and angeline drinks

Who’s the most innocent?: ANGELINE. AND SHUFEN

Can any of them dance?: ANGELINE (Y) POLE DANCING ONE DAY OK. Hahha and Justina CLUBBING. Shufen ah.................... HAHAHAH LYRICAL RIGHT?

Can any of them not swim?: They're all good swimmers. OMG THAT'S SOMETHING THEY ALL HAVE IN COMMON!! ;D

Can any of them drive?: NO

Have you ever cuddled any of them?: ALL OF THEM :) I love cuddling.

Have you ever kissed any of them?: NOOOOOOOOOO

Have you ever gone further with any of them?: NOOOOOOOO

Have you ever told any of them that you love them?: YES EVERY NOW AND THEN :) I remember, the other day during GP I told Angeline I love her hahah because we were discussing about something. Or was it civics? I told her I love her (in case sth bad happens) TOUCH WOOD.

Have you ever argued with any of them?: Shufen you always argue with meeeeeeee BUT I LOVE YOU

Have you ever had a fight with any of them?: NO

Have you ever seen any of them cry?: Yeah. I think I haven't seen angeline cried?

Have you ever made any of them cry?: HAHAHAAH SHUFEN HAVE I?

Have you ever seen any of them drunk? NOPE.

Have you ever seen any of them high?: NO

Have you ever been jealous of any of them?: yes!!!!!!!!!

Have you ever been scared of any of them?: uh, nope.

Do you love any of them?: - BIG FAT WIDE SMILE-

GENERAL
Do you get along better with girls or boys?: Both

Do you wish you had more girl friends?: I wish I could sitll be good friends with my special girlfriends

Do you wish you had more boy friends?: I think it comes and goes. Except a few ones I love like Ryanlee, xuanzheng, shawnlee, nicholas AND MY BROTHER I LOVE YOU OK ;D
Sorry I love to ignore you people.

Do you sometimes befriend people because you’re attracted to them?: Yes, many times. I'm a strong advocate of the "first impression counts" shit.

Have you ever been stabbed in the back by a friend?: Hell yeah.

Have you ever been the backstabber?:

<3 u 2

2009-10-04T22:07:00.002+08:00

Dear Shufen,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but our affair is over. I think I realized it when I finally changed my underwear at the mental hospital and I saw you sit on your ‘My Little Pony’ collection. I'm sure you're open enough to understand that I get turned on only by garbage men. I'm returning your car to you, but I'll keep your photo with the mustache drawn on it as a memory. You should also know that I kove your sweet, sweet ass and I'm scratching my butt as you read this.

Warm tingly sensations,
Ashley

How to play:

Dear (someone you recently talked to),
I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2)(3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).

(12),
(Your name)

1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When you smacked my ass
August - When I saw the purple monkey
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the mustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your suicide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorities that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Beer- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Wine – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself

HAAHAHAHAHAHA

2009-10-04T21:03:00.002+08:00

1.

I've come to realise ...
Replace my answers with yours and spread the love around:

1. I've come to realise that my boobs...
ARE GROWING HAHAHAH PUBERTY FTW.

2. I've come to realise that my job...
As a student KINDA SUCKS

3. I've come to realise that when I'm driving...
I CAN'T DRIVE.
I DON'T THINK I SHOULD DRIVE.
I can't even cycle for nuts!
(But I not-so-secretly wanna bike)

4. I've come to realise that I need...
TO STUDY (oh my god i'm boring)
And I need to buy presents for my friends.
HAHAHAH ESPECIALLY THOSE I PROMISED SINCE... FOREVER.

5. I've come to realise that I've lost...
Hope, motivation and care for myself.
Hhhahah now I have this premonition that I'm going to be running around or rather, plodding around sweeping floors next time.
LIKE A SLAVE.
A rad slave :)

6. I've come to realise that I hate it when...
I HATE SOMETHING.
Get it?
I got too much pet peeves it pisses me off that I'm such a selfish + bitchy little girl
BORING,
JUST LIKE ANY OTHER UNIQUE TEENAGER

7. I've come to realise the person I like...
Fuck him.

8. I've come to realise that money...
AND ME HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO FATE.
NO FATE.
And I didn't even take allllowance this week.
Do you even want me to go on ranting about how much I hate my dad?
HE.........!!!!!!!!
:)

9. I've come to realise that people...
Are harmless.
Seriously. They don't do anything to you unless you provoke them.
BUT THEN AGAIN, there are freakshows in the world WHO I ABSOLUTELY ADMIRE FOR THEIR COURAGE AND LOVE., TYVM.
People are fake, obnoxious, lying and scary.
I can't look into people's eyes. I just can't.
I'm scared they'll see right through me.

10. I've come to realise that I'll always be...
Chew Lixian Ashley.
And you'll just have to love me for who I am.
And noisy. HAHAHHA.
And queer *sniggers*

12. I've come to realise that my mum...
Is an attention-seeking whoreeeeeeee HAHHAH I'M KIDDING.
No lah, but she went clubbing like WTF at St. James when I was mugging my ass off.
HAHAHAHHA CORRECTION: TRYING to mug my ass off at home.
Damn.
And I have to be her stylist &^%$$#@%^
Life sucks. I'm the one's that friggin SEVENTEEN THIS YEAR.
I'm the one that's supposed to live it up!
I AM SUPPOSED TO BE THE ONE HAVING FUN AND COMING HOME AT 3AM
THEN GET SCREWED THE FOLLOWING MONTH.
Ugh.
And my mom's gorgeous. I just haven't got the chance to tell her.

13. I've come to realise that my cell phone...
Is sooooooooooooooooooooooooo HOT.
yeah right.
It's screwed.
Picture this: BACK COVER GONE, REPLACED WITH BLUTAC IN CASE THE BATTERY FALLS OFF AND WITH A LARGER-THAN-LIFE CRACK ACROSS THE SCREEN. Yes, it's bigger than the lighting bolt on harry's head, my dear.

14. I've come to realise that when I woke up this morning...
I bathed and smell like flowers.
I washed my face with Green Tea Aloe Vera cheapskate dirtcheap facial wash.
And I had 7 unread messages which I STILL refuse to open.
HAHAHA IN CASE GOT SOMETHING TO DO WITH PW (Shhh)

15. I've come to realise that last night before I went to sleep...
I only studied for like 3 hours the entire day.
AND IT'S A FRIGGIN SATURDAY.
AHAHAHAHA WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?
Oh, I tried to read the Bible.
Something about revenge. Scary.
Sometimes, when I read the bible, je ne sais quoi feelings will rush all overrrrrrrr me.
Hahahha maybe it's like to make me feel less guilty so it makes me happy.
BTW THE BACKSTREET BOYS SONG SUCKS.

16. I've come to realise that right now I am thinking about...
How to keep my 4 H2s without studying.
And how to get alot of cold hard cash this holidays COS I GOT A WHOLE SHITLOAD OF THINGS I WANNA BUY.
DID I TELL YOU?
I'M GOING TO BANGKOK HAHAHAHAHHAHA STRAIGHT AFTER PROMOS!!!!!!!!!!!
;)

17. I've come to realise that my dad...
Just talked to me 5 seconds ago after our 3 day cold war.
Wow.
Good question (Y)

18. I've come to realise that when I get on Facebook...
I type in one letter.
But you're never online anymore.
COS YOU'RE BUSY STUDYING.
Damn.
Pig!!!!!!!!!!!!

19. I've come to realise that today....
Was unproductive but yet more productive than yesterday.
I am beginning to realise that I'm boring.
Everyday is the saaaaaaaaame.

20. I've come to realise that tonight...
Is not a special night.

21. I've come to realise that tomorrow will be...
Monday.
-cringes-

22. I've come to realise that I really want to...
BE A NERD.
NERD
NERD
NERD
NERD
NERD
(seee, I got potential! i'm like a conformist and i'm boring and i can spell! CHEER FOR ME. NOW.)

24. I've come to realise that life...
Is good.
LA DOLCE VITA, BABY!
I mean, c'est le vie man.
Soooooooo, CARPE DIEM!

25. I've come to realise that this weekend...
Is a weekend like any other.

26. I've come to realise that my ex's...
HAHAHAH NON-EXISTENT.

27. I've realised the best music to listen to when I am upset...
Sum 41 - Best of Me, With Me.
Only sum41. ONLY SUM41.

28. I've come to realise that my friends...
Are really awesome friends. They make me feel comfortable.
I really pray +hope + wish + KNOW that we will remain as friends even til the end of time :)
I can be a UGLY OLD HAG FOR ALL I CARE BUT I MUST HAVE MY FRIENDS.

29.I've come to realise that this past year...
Was krazy.
One hell of a rollercoaster ride.
Orientation, meeting new friends (Y), OG7!!!! OGLs!, cheering like mad, SPORTS DAY GAMMAGODS OWNXZXZZX OMG ALL MY EFFORTS PAID OFF, HC, HC CAMP, HC handover, HC generation bbq, EAST COAST PARK with Cheryllllllchew :) and talking with RYAN :) CAN! MARATHON hahah dancing with Justina, ZOOOOO ATTACHMENT with CRYSTAL LIM LIQING, TENNIS tournaments, yay tennis girls team 08/09 ftw, EEUU for JCTs was definitely a highlight (God, I never knew I was stupid), how can I forget BAND CONCERT DANCE CONCERT HHAHHA and Oh my goodness POWER OF LOVE CONCERT WTF I can't believe I'm a performer. AND A DANCER AT THAT. WTF was I thinking. Mother.
I kinda like 01/09 :)

30. I've come to realise that the last person I kissed...
I don't wanna get kissed til the day I get married.
Quote me.

31. I've come to realise that when people walk out of my life...
I don't realise because I'm insensitive like that.
But then when the truth hits me headon like a BIG YELLOW SCHOOL BUS, I get really upset.
But I won't show it. I will just. Emo one corner. HAHHA.
I hate talking about sad stuff.
OK GET OVER IT ;)

2.

1) Does your Facebook password have to do with a guy?
HAHAHHA IT HAS TO DO WITH A GIRL WITH CURLY WURLY HAIR WHO'S SUPER INSECURE ABOUT IT BY THE WAY and who goes by the name Fatimah. Moreover, facebook was her BIRTHDAY + CHRISTMAS gift to me. Suck on that. OWnxzx :D

2) Are you a girly girl?
I'd like to think I am.

3) Big Purse or Small Purse?
How about a Chanel 2.55?

4) Do you sleep in a bra?
I need all the support in the world.
IT'S GROWING, REMEMBER?

5) Coach bag or NFL game ticket?
Depends, actually.
If NFL game ticket came with a free ticket + free lodging and an exotic country, I WOULD SAY YES PLEASE GIMME GIMMEEEEEEEEEEE.
Actually just with any good friend would be satisfying!
But Coach bag definitely :)

6) Do you enjoy drama?
Yeah, why not. If it does not revolve around myself..........
I pretty much like to be a hermit crab tyvm :)
I love indulging in someone else's life.

7) Did you dress up on Halloween?
When's Halloween?

8) Do you call anybody by their last name?
I kinda find it weird (yes I still do) when Justina and Charis call me chew.
HAHAHHAHA KAMSAHAMIDA
I LIKE TO SAY "HIHI" OR "HELLOOOOOOO" OR "HEY"
I don't like calling people by their names unless we're in love or something.

9) How many guys will read this just because it says FEMALE SURVEY?
??????????????????

10) Do you wear makeup?
Au naturel.
Sans make-up because I'm a lazy girl.
BUT I DO LOVE/ENJOY/ AM OBSESSED WITH MAKE-UP.

11) Have you ever been called a bad influence?
A coupleeeeee of times....
Many times?
UGH FINE, MOST OF THE TIME.

12) American Eagle or Hollister?
American Apparel.

13) Heels or flats?
Gorgeous stilettos.
Or ankle boots.
Like those bow Kate Spade ones I COVET or those Ashish for topshop leopard print ones.
DAMN.

14) Jeans or skirts?
I HATE JEANS. BUT I REALLY LIKE THE LOOK OF CIGARETTE STOVEPIPE DENIM ON SKINNY SEXY BOOTY PEOPLE.
Skirts for me.

15) Heels or sneakers?
Hhhahahhaha ironically, sneakers.

16) Straight or curly?
I can't curl my hair for nuts.
I HATE IT
IT'S SO STRAIGHT. MY HAIR CANNOT MAKE IT.
):
Curlyyyyyyyyyyy, please.

17) Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
I'm used to dark haired guys.
How about curly hair! :)
-drooools-
LIKE ADAM BRODY.

18) Do you have a best friend?
HAHHAHAHAHAHA
Until this day I still can't answer this question.
BECAUSE I'M WAITING FOR YOUR ANSWER.

19) Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
Duh, it's the 21st Century.
I KINDA WANNA BE A PLASTIC SURGEON WHEN I WAS YOUNG.
OR YOUNGER.
Like last year.
when I was slightly smarter.

20) Do you like your life?
-nods head vigorously-

21) Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
Deliberately?
I think once.
SOMEONE FORCED ME TO.
Hahhaha I vaguely remember why.
Oh and I remember there was this one time,
I really had to shit so I went to the men's room HAHAHAHHAHAHAH.
This year. This year. This year.

22) Have you ever jumped in the water with your clothes on?
Yeah last year.
Thanks ah faith.

23) Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
But I would love to!
MY brother slapped me the other day!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHHAH
AND HE ALMOST DIED. LAUGHING.

24) Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Countless times.

25) Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Hahahhaah how about now?

IN A BOY:
1) Cowboy or gangster?
Ahbengzzzzzzzzzz

2) Preppy or Punk Goth?
Preppy sexy nerd cute geeky awesome.

3) Well-Educated or Dropout?
Humourous.

4) Contacts or Glasses?
Don't care.

5) Funny or Serious?
I like people who joke with a straight face.
I like serious funny guys. HAHAHHAHAHA.

6) Romantic or Dare devil?
None. I like spontaneous.
Romance isn't my thing.
Wtf is dare-devil?

7) Cute or Hot?
Cute and hot? HAHAHHAHHA
HOW ABOUT
CUTE BUT THEN I REALISED HES HOT TOO?
Like beneath all that nerdy demeanor.
:)))))))))))))))))))))))))

8) Long or short hair?
Short, wispy long-fringed.

9)Baseball or hockey guy?
None.

10) Good singer or Good dancer?
Dancers, in my opinion are more expressive and charismatic.
But I do appreciate boys with good taste in music.
And my that I mean, by my definitions.
HAHAHAHA
And I'm rather ashamed by my song choices.
Like if I had a iPod I don't htink I'll really share it.
I MEAN IT'S NOT I'M LIKE CHARIS WITH HER OBSESSION WITH DISNEYYYYYY
But I do enjoy orchestra EVEN THOUGH I DON'T KNOW SHIT ABOUT IT,
I love indieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I love oldies.
I love kpop/jpop/rock
I love electronica.
I LOVE TRASHY POP MUSIC I LOVE LADY GAGA THANKYOUVERYMUCH.
I love ballads, love songs.
Screamo are annoyingly addictive and I love a couple of Chinese songs.
I am genuinely ashamed.
HAHAHHAHAH
But nonetheless amused by my own choices.

3.

1. Who was your FIRST love?
-

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
...

3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?
Cheap red wine at a random wedding dinner when I was old enough to walk and talk sensibly (perhaps never)

4. What was your FIRST job?
Being attached at the Zoo?

5. Who was your first friend on facebook?
Fatimah (OHMYGOD I FORGOT HOW TO SPELL YOUR SURNAME) but I know you're Arab lah hahaha (:

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
I don't even know where my phone is.

7. What was the FIRST thing u did this morning?
Stared at myself in the mirror and practiced self-indulgence.

8. Who was the FIRST person to call you today?
My aunt.
SHE HAS MY CAMERA.
SHE INVITED ME TO EAT MOF AT BUGIS BUT I WAS SUPPOSED TO STUDY.
And now..... Here I am.

9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
Los Angeles, California.
When I was 3 or 4?

10. Who was your FIRST best friend and are you still friends with them?
I remember my first "best friend" was from primary school.
Primary 1, her name's Zhen yi.
SHE'S ON MY MSN LIST HAHAHAHA -PROUD-
And we've talked a couple of days ago.
But we're no longer "friends"?
Just happened to meet her on the bus :)
AND SHE'S IN TJC.

11. What was your FIRST sport played?
Whatever MOE taught us.

12. FIRST piercing?
TA1, in 2007 which is.......
15?

13. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
My mom.
It wasn't even a conversation.

14. How old were you the FIRST time you had sex?
HAHAHAHHA I'M HOPING IT'S NOT THIS YEAR OR ANY COMING YEARS.

15. What was the FIRST thing you ate this morning?
B-A-N-A-N-A-Z

16. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
I THINK IT WAS CHURCH.

17. FIRST tattoo?
I'M HOPING NEXT YEAR.

18. FIRST foreign country you went to?
AMERICA

19. What was your FIRST run in with the law?
I have absolutely no recollection.

20. What is the FIRST movie you ever remember seeing?
Definitely something disney. I like all Disney princesses. Except for one loser one, can't rmb.
Spiderman! at the cinema!
Hahaaah! No, im kidding.
I remember I never watched movies that often because my home is filled, FILLEDDDDDDDDD to the brim with pirated dvds. So when i went to like primary 5 or something then we would always go watch movies with friends like it's something very common and usual BUT I FELT SO AWKWARD AND GUILTY.
Like I was betraying my family cos we're supposed to watch movies together!
It's our thing you know.
Something special. Deep connection.
BUT OH WELLZ, IT WAS GONE WITH THE WIND.

21. What was the FIRST state you lived in?
Singapore.

22. Who was the FIRST person to break your heart?
A girl.

23. Who was your FIRST room-mate?
Primary 5 camp was more like beds.
Justina Leong at OBS.

24. Where did you go on your FIRST limo ride?
-

25. Who will be the FIRST to repost this?
My friends are nerds.
Sorry to disappoint.

So it goes.

2009-10-04T17:34:00.001+08:00

I have the choice of being constantly active and happy
or introspectively passive and sad.
Or I can go mad by ricocheting in between.

-Sylvia Plath

like.then luck. then love.

2009-10-03T19:35:00.001+08:00

What defines a best friend? What are the requirements to be a good best friend? How many hours a week does it entail? Stupid questions that have no answers. A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they hang out together. It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have. There are no requirements or laws that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every little detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion. It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things. It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn’t even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming.

If you listen closely,

2009-10-03T17:06:00.000+08:00

Won't you be my benign sin?

You can find a clarity and a depth capable of illuminating your every emotion and breath.

It's the little things in life.

2009-10-03T17:02:00.001+08:00

Listening to: Kath Bloom - Come Here

may my heart always be open to little
birds who are the secrets of living
whatever they sing is better than to know
and if men should not hear them men are old

may my mind stroll about hungry
and fearless and thirsty and supple
and even if it's sunday may i be wrong
for whenever men are right they are not young

and may myself do nothing usefully
and love yourself so more than truly
there's never been quite such a fool who could fail
pulling all the sky over him with one smile

- E E Cummings

How I wasted my morning + afternoon

2009-10-03T16:49:00.001+08:00

Dead Poet's Society - AMAZING.

Seize the day!

2009-10-03T14:14:00.000+08:00

Êtes-vous heureux?

2009-10-03T14:05:00.000+08:00

Sylvia Plath - Street Song

2009-10-03T13:03:00.000+08:00

By a mad miracle I go intact
Among the common rout
Thronging sidewalk, street,
And bickering shops;
Nobody blinks a lid, gapes,
Or cries that this raw flesh
Reeks of the butcher's cleaver,
Its heart and guts hung hooked
And bloodied as a cow's split frame
Parceled out by white-jacketed assassins.

Oh no, for I strut it clever
As a greenly escaped idiot,
Buying wine, bread,
Yellow-casqued chrysanthemums -
Arming myself with the most reasonable items
To ward off, at all cost, suspicions
Roused by thorned hands, feet, head
And that great wound
Squandering red
From the flayed side.

Even as my each mangled nerve-end
Trills its hurt out
Above pitch of pedestrian ear,
So, perhaps I, knelled dumb by your absence,
Alone can hear
Sun's parched scream,
Every downfall and crash
Of gutted star,
And, more daft than any goose,
This cracked world's incessant gabble and hiss.

My favourite episode (:

2009-10-03T12:50:00.001+08:00

AWESOM-O 3000

Les beaux étés sans toi, c'est la nuit sans flambeau.

2009-10-03T11:15:00.003+08:00

"Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad."

Remember by Christina Rossetti

E. E. Cummings

2009-10-03T11:08:00.001+08:00

if seventy were young
and death uncommon
(forgiving not divine,
to err inhuman)
or any thine a mine
--dingdong:dongding--
to say would be to sing

if broken hearts were whole
and cowards heroes
(the popular the wise,
a weed a tearose)
and every minus plus
--fare ill:fare well--
a frown would be a smile

if sorrowful were gay
(today tomorrow,
doubting believing and
to lend to borrow)
or any foe a friend
--cry nay:cry yea--
november would be may

that you and i'd be quite
zome such perfection
another i and you,
is a deduction
which(be it false or true)
disposes me to shoot
dogooding folk on sight

Just to wake up to you.

2009-10-01T23:01:00.003+08:00

My 1001 post.
A sad one.

Let me tell you.
I just realised why my eyes are born sad.
And so are my lips.
It's simply because God wants them to serve as a reminder that my existence on Earth is to try to keep myself happy.
Because my predicament just won't enable me to be.
So everyday I step out of my room, I will do my best.
I will try. Try as hard as I can.

Until one day, I'm going to crumble.
I don't think I can take this anymore.
It's like what you always watch on TV, exclaiming that, OH THIS WON'T HAPPEN TO ME WTH.
And then, poof!

Right on.

Bring it on, I'm turning 18 next year.
I think I can handle it, I think I can still keep that smile on my face.

Damn, I need some divine intervention.

Behind those closed doors, who do you see yourself in the mirror?

Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.
Your favourite word eh?

I'm sorry, it's all that I can say
You mean so much and I'd fix all that I've done
If I could start again
I'd throw it all away to the shadows of regrets
And you would have the best of me

gone, going.

2009-09-30T17:13:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Glee Cast

"I gave her a rose, she was so happy"